Sunday, 30 December 2018

2018: thank u, next

First of all, the ~apologies~ section, for the most predictable and potentially overused title (but I'm also not at all sorry because what an ICONIC bop), and also for failing to write anything at all in multiple months. I wanted to do a very brief post to summarise my 2018; brief because even as I write this I'm aware that I should be tackling my ever-growing to-do list, which I feel generally encapsulates my year on the whole - BLOODY BUSY. But also because I think it's entirely important to recognise everything that's happened since the Earth last completed its orbit of the sun, and give yourself a big old Pat On The Back for getting through another one.

I think personally, 2018 has been the year of the most dramatic self-transformation, and that I'm entering 2019 as an almost entirely different person to the one I was 365 days ago. I'm at least 73x happier in areas of my life I didn't even realise I was unhappy in, my confidence has developed more than I could have dreamed, I'm surrounded by friends that I adore whilst thriving at university, and I feel like I've finally become ~myself~. Obviously there have been ups and downs: I had to relearn how to exist as a One and not part of a Two following a break-up (have I had my fair share yet?). There have been times this year that my anxiety has been at it's Worst Ever. BUT I've travelled (a lot), I started a bloody Blog + Instagram (and stuck at it) and have worked with ~actual real-life~ brands that I've loved for years (Pinch Me), I've laughed until I've cried and I've fallen in love with my life. I can also confirm that living with friends is the most wholesome experience + I wouldn't change it for the world.

I'm not entirely sure what the concluding message to this short ramble is and I hope it doesn't sound braggy (I'm just pretty proud and rightfully so, I'd say) other than that it really does Get Better. I was probably in one of my lowest places towards the beginning of this year, feeling completely lost and on the wrong path with life in general, but I chose to Stick It Out and I couldn't mean it more when I say I will be grateful to 2018-me for the rest of my life. I'm leaving this year enriched with knowledge and things I never thought I'd have for myself (and I surprisingly don't mean any of my (many) materialistic purchases); Friendships really can be as fulfilling as romantic relationships, dark times really don't last forever (even when they seem like they will), and people will stare whilst you take instagram photos whether you're in Tesco, by an aesthetic building, or wearing a princess dress and holding a Mickey Mouse balloon in front of Sleeping Beauty's Castle in Disneyland - just smile and wave.

Wishing each and every one of you lovely humans all of the love, happiness and positivity for 2019.

2018: Thank U, Next x